So it’s 3:33 in the morning and I’m still awake for some unknown reason and I must admit i’m tired of lying. I continuously get the question “How’s college?”, “How’s UNT?”, and “Why aren’t you there/here anymore?” and I lie saying it’s due to money to as my dad said one day “save face”. I keep trying to hold this image of me being “perfect” or the “perfect child” but I can’t lie anymore. The thing is I lived such a sheltered life that once I got to college and go in the environment of no curfew, no rules, no one supervising my every move I was finally free but I indeed was a little too free. Rather than staying in my dorm and studying i would go hang out with friends til whenever i felt wherever i felt and it was awesome! I really do miss it right now but I know now that I needed to stay home this semester to come back to reality and realize that it’s not all fun and games but you realize that with living and learning and that’s what i’m doing.
